puff... talking about my self
is one of the hardest things for me to do.
I like reading Lord of the Rings and watching "Anime." I like football soccer, such-ii, reading (even tho i never loved literature) and writing stories as scripts. I value honesty, commitment, scholarship and kindness.
These are hard and true facts, but there is a lot I do not know about myself. I don't know how I feel about the death penalty, I have mixed feelings about religion, and I don't know what I think about a cashless society. I have no stock answer to offer about a life-changing experience or a moment of enlightenment, and it is hard for me to give a comprehensive proclamation of who I am, for my identity unfolds more every day as my experiences grow, and i don't have much. Since I am only 20 years old, life has a lot of unfolding to do.
I dislike saying "I am trying to find myself" because my identity is not lost, it just needs more uncovering. Luckily for me, what I love to do and want to be helps me uncover more about myself. I want to be a an Artist (photographer, Film Maker, Script-writer). I may not end up a professional but I will all ways be behind a camera, even if I am the only one interested in my work, because Art is my self-reflection.
When writing, drawing or designing, I sometimes get worked up into such a fervor that I barely know what I am doing. I just let my hands fly and the ideas pour from my head. When I go back through the mess of ideas, I notice a theme running through the work. I don't try to put a moral in the theme, but sometimes it happens. Evaluating the theme and the rest of the the Art (if you can call it that way) helps me interpret my own character and decipher my at times bottled-up feelings. In opinion my images and stories, my values show and express my general beliefs.
Every day my experience and knowledge increase, and I learn more about myself. Each time I write what is in my head as honestly as I can, another piece of the identity puzzle is revealed. Mostly, I like what I am (though this varies depending on how "emo" I'm feeling). I am not worried that I don't know everything about myself. As I get older, I'll figure it out.
Any other thing you can find out by your self.
Ps: I love the rain...and its raining now.